last night i had a huge breakdown. on the kitchen floor.
i swear all of my breakdowns come in the kitchen. (not that i ever break down)
school is tough, work is good, but hard to balance with school, and i just feel like i don't want to be doing these things!
i don't feel like i am excelling in school, but instead feeling super mediocre.
and as a perfectionist not having the time to achieve my idea of "perfect" in the things i am doing
i am feeling lost!
i want to feel passionate about the things i am doing
but instead i feel like i am dying to move on to the next thing
i am grateful for this time in our life, i am not grateful for the essentials of corporate finance though.
not at all.
all in all? i need motivation to keep it up! someone give me motivation? anyone?
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on a more positive note
i am sooo so grateful for the life we are living, and feel so much joy everyday.
even in the silliest little things
like how amazing the candle smells that is burning in the kitchen right now (seriously! yum.)
& our nightly jogs along center street
last night as i felt overwhelmed with my imperfections, tanner sat next to me on the rug under the sink,
and helped me make a plan to make things better.
a plan that included a whole lot of help from above.
and in that moment that life felt oh so imperfect
all those imperfections built up to one perfect moment of love & support.
and i am grateful for that & the challenges and for the chance to grow and see what i am capable of.
god is good. life is, at the end of the day, SO GOOD.
and it is all going to be just fine.
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